Time and again, I have been accused of being a miser. But deep down, in my heart, I know lurks a spendthrift... I have umpteen number of unwanted stuff I have bought, many wanted stuff I havent used in a while.
So, this article on msn attracted me and I am just sharing it here.
http://blogs.moneycentral.msn.com/smartspending/archive/2008/06/16/the-difference-between-want-and-need-three-months.aspx
The jist of the article is this. If you think you want to buy something, list it down and make a note if it is a 'want' or 'need'. After 2 or 3 months, go back to the list and see if you still 'want' it or 'need' it. If it is a need, only then do u buy it.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Recollecting the forgotten! :O
“A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory”
Maybe this is the root of all my problems.. I can never forget my forgetfulness(if such a word exists). What is my brain's memory? I figure 256mb.
Why am I writing this blog?
Got inspired to write this blog when I came onsite to Seattle on office work for Tmobile. I packed my suitcase thinking I might be staying 4 weeks and took the bigger suitcase. Plan to check-in online, take printout, schedule myself to reach airport 30 mins before flight takeoff. ( I had forgotten I had a big suitcase and had to reach 40-45 mins early to check-in the bags). I apply shaving cream in the morning to realize it is 45 mins to flight. This isnt the only thing I forgot.
I had put the SLR camera battery for charging. Took the camera, not the battery. I had to postpone visiting Seattle downtown for over a week until I received it through UPS.
I knew Seattle was a beautiful town. I had geared up to do some photography. Forgot the tripod.
I knew I had only one pair of shoes. I forgot to take my slippers.
The worst thing I am ashamed of is this incident: I complain to the receptionist that the coffee machine is filling too much hotwater and my cup overflowed. Only later I realized that I had put a cup full of coffee under the machine.
School and College days remind me of my mother reminding me to write down stuff(that i have to remember) on my right hand and to write down on my left hand to have a look at the right hand. I once didnt even realize that my friend (whom I had to pick up from Parking lot of a movie theater) hadnt yet sat on my bike and I drove away. Whats worse? I would write down things to get from the shop on a piece of paper and forget the paper at home.
There have been times I have forgotten to pay the shopkeeper (sometimes intentionally, I am also ashamed of this ofcourse), times when I have put reverse gear(when I intend to move forward) and sped off just to bang into a car behind, times I walk to pantry to have coffee, only to realize I already have a filled hot cup of coffee on my table, times I forget to wash clothes and go c*******, times when I go on a camping trip forgetting the swimming trunks and buy them there(this explains the 5-6 swimming trunks I have, all used just once), times I take bath and take bath again because I forgot to apply soap.
Ah! this reminds me of my mother cheating me into eating curd rice second time because I would have forgotten I already had it once.(I would be watching tv, and I mix sambar to curd rice, the plate looks brown, logically if no memory of eating, the plate depicts that I just finished sambar rice and curd rice is pending).
Times when I watch the entire movie (without knowing what movie), get to know the movie name in the end to realize I had watched it earlier, times when I am driving, forgot that I am supposed to go to my granny's house and reached college instead, times I am looking for my mobile while talking on my cellphone..lol..
However, there are some things I dont remember forgetting. My cellphone. (Wallets have been forgotten a couple of times).
And not to mention I know I have a lot more things I have forgotten in the past. So, I will come back and update this blog now and then.. till then read this, http://health.howstuffworks.com/10-ways-to-improve-memory.htm
Maybe this is the root of all my problems.. I can never forget my forgetfulness(if such a word exists). What is my brain's memory? I figure 256mb.
Why am I writing this blog?
Got inspired to write this blog when I came onsite to Seattle on office work for Tmobile. I packed my suitcase thinking I might be staying 4 weeks and took the bigger suitcase. Plan to check-in online, take printout, schedule myself to reach airport 30 mins before flight takeoff. ( I had forgotten I had a big suitcase and had to reach 40-45 mins early to check-in the bags). I apply shaving cream in the morning to realize it is 45 mins to flight. This isnt the only thing I forgot.
I had put the SLR camera battery for charging. Took the camera, not the battery. I had to postpone visiting Seattle downtown for over a week until I received it through UPS.
I knew Seattle was a beautiful town. I had geared up to do some photography. Forgot the tripod.
I knew I had only one pair of shoes. I forgot to take my slippers.
The worst thing I am ashamed of is this incident: I complain to the receptionist that the coffee machine is filling too much hotwater and my cup overflowed. Only later I realized that I had put a cup full of coffee under the machine.
School and College days remind me of my mother reminding me to write down stuff(that i have to remember) on my right hand and to write down on my left hand to have a look at the right hand. I once didnt even realize that my friend (whom I had to pick up from Parking lot of a movie theater) hadnt yet sat on my bike and I drove away. Whats worse? I would write down things to get from the shop on a piece of paper and forget the paper at home.
There have been times I have forgotten to pay the shopkeeper (sometimes intentionally, I am also ashamed of this ofcourse), times when I have put reverse gear(when I intend to move forward) and sped off just to bang into a car behind, times I walk to pantry to have coffee, only to realize I already have a filled hot cup of coffee on my table, times I forget to wash clothes and go c*******, times when I go on a camping trip forgetting the swimming trunks and buy them there(this explains the 5-6 swimming trunks I have, all used just once), times I take bath and take bath again because I forgot to apply soap.
Ah! this reminds me of my mother cheating me into eating curd rice second time because I would have forgotten I already had it once.(I would be watching tv, and I mix sambar to curd rice, the plate looks brown, logically if no memory of eating, the plate depicts that I just finished sambar rice and curd rice is pending).
Times when I watch the entire movie (without knowing what movie), get to know the movie name in the end to realize I had watched it earlier, times when I am driving, forgot that I am supposed to go to my granny's house and reached college instead, times I am looking for my mobile while talking on my cellphone..lol..
However, there are some things I dont remember forgetting. My cellphone. (Wallets have been forgotten a couple of times).
And not to mention I know I have a lot more things I have forgotten in the past. So, I will come back and update this blog now and then.. till then read this, http://health.howstuffworks.com/10-ways-to-improve-memory.htm
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Plunge from the sky!!!!!!
Ok.. I first thought of skydiving 2 years ago...
September 2006. Joined Extreme Sports club at University at its formation, attracted by the 'Skydiving' activity on their agenda.
March 2007: I realized I still didnt have an internship and did not go to the skydiving event.
Oct 2007: I was about to travel to India in December and expenses were already skyrocketing.. Failed to participate then
March 2008: I had 3 tough courses along with an internship. Didnt go then
August 2008: Renewed my membership with 'Extreme Sports' though I graduated from University ( To avail the discount for students )
Nov 2008: Parents were here... Geared myself up, woke up at 7.30, took my parents along for the Skydiving. Got the discounted Skydiving ticket through the club. Unfortunately it was cloudy. We waited for 3 hours before calling the day off. I even have a album titled 'Skydiving FLOP SHOW'.
2009: Right since March, have been looking forward for a weekend with Sun, my free time and company. It came together today when Swetha called me up ( she is my skydiving partner).
It was a blast.. No more talk... I mean blog. Just a log..
Photos: http://picasaweb.google.com/prashanth.guha/SkyDiveDallas?feat=directlink
Video: http://www.skydivedallas.com/videos/playsddvideo.php?studentvideo=20090517_Prashath_Gulfa.wmv
September 2006. Joined Extreme Sports club at University at its formation, attracted by the 'Skydiving' activity on their agenda.
March 2007: I realized I still didnt have an internship and did not go to the skydiving event.
Oct 2007: I was about to travel to India in December and expenses were already skyrocketing.. Failed to participate then
March 2008: I had 3 tough courses along with an internship. Didnt go then
August 2008: Renewed my membership with 'Extreme Sports' though I graduated from University ( To avail the discount for students )
Nov 2008: Parents were here... Geared myself up, woke up at 7.30, took my parents along for the Skydiving. Got the discounted Skydiving ticket through the club. Unfortunately it was cloudy. We waited for 3 hours before calling the day off. I even have a album titled 'Skydiving FLOP SHOW'.
2009: Right since March, have been looking forward for a weekend with Sun, my free time and company. It came together today when Swetha called me up ( she is my skydiving partner).
It was a blast.. No more talk... I mean blog. Just a log..
Photos: http://picasaweb.google.com/prashanth.guha/SkyDiveDallas?feat=directlink
Video: http://www.skydivedallas.com/videos/playsddvideo.php?studentvideo=20090517_Prashath_Gulfa.wmv
Monday, March 30, 2009
Yet another movie story
Kids face lot of peer pressure... I say this coz this happened to me when I was a kid..
Probably I was in 3rd or 4th standard when friends at school and neighbourhood were constantly talking about this tamil movie titled 'Gentleman'. Constantly discussing and appreciating the nice songs in the movie..And succumbing to 'peer pressure', I wanted to watch this movie too..
I ask my dad to take me to this movie and he takes me to the nearest 'Kamakya theater'. I didnt know to read Tamil. Neither did I understand Tamil. I watch the movie happy that the songs and the story were good as expected.. ( I understood the story by the facial emotions and hand movements).
Years later when in PUC, I watched the movie 'Thiruda Thiruda' and realized that the movie I watched supposedly 'Gentleman' was actually Thiruda Thiruda. And to this day, havent watched Gentleman.
Very Recently, had read on rediff that Ghajini is a remake of the hollywood movie 'Memento'. Days later, I forgot entirely about this, but still watched Ghajini. Few friends while on climbing trip, were talking about 'Memento'. So I had to say "I remember to have watched the Indian remake of 'Memento' but I dont remember what movie, so I cant comment on Memento's story". Cant believe my memory could be so bad...
Not to be disheartened, I remind myself of the story where Newton cut a second smaller hole in the door when his cat gave birth to a kitten.
Probably I was in 3rd or 4th standard when friends at school and neighbourhood were constantly talking about this tamil movie titled 'Gentleman'. Constantly discussing and appreciating the nice songs in the movie..And succumbing to 'peer pressure', I wanted to watch this movie too..
I ask my dad to take me to this movie and he takes me to the nearest 'Kamakya theater'. I didnt know to read Tamil. Neither did I understand Tamil. I watch the movie happy that the songs and the story were good as expected.. ( I understood the story by the facial emotions and hand movements).
Years later when in PUC, I watched the movie 'Thiruda Thiruda' and realized that the movie I watched supposedly 'Gentleman' was actually Thiruda Thiruda. And to this day, havent watched Gentleman.
Very Recently, had read on rediff that Ghajini is a remake of the hollywood movie 'Memento'. Days later, I forgot entirely about this, but still watched Ghajini. Few friends while on climbing trip, were talking about 'Memento'. So I had to say "I remember to have watched the Indian remake of 'Memento' but I dont remember what movie, so I cant comment on Memento's story". Cant believe my memory could be so bad...
Not to be disheartened, I remind myself of the story where Newton cut a second smaller hole in the door when his cat gave birth to a kitten.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Strictly Technical: build clean
I am going to give you the 'Lesson Learnt' right in the beginning as an introduction.. "Dont work too much"
I was out climbing this weekend in Oklahoma.. After a tiring Saturday, we are sleeping in the tent.. rather I am sleeping alone in my tent.. It is cold, drizzling outside.. I am in my sleeping bag.. waking up every 5 mins.. rolling left and right, half asleep.. knew I woke up for some reason and go back to sleep..
After a couple of times, I realized, I am doing a 'build clean' command in my dream. For some reason the build is failing.. And I dont know why it is failing.. When I fall back half asleep again, I do a 'build clean' command again.. After a few more times I woke up, I realized I had to pee and was doing a 'build clean' in my dream corresponding to this bodily function..
As a prolog to the introduction, I chose not to pee before sleepin since it was raining and the restroom in the campground was half mile away. As a preface to the prolog, I was working hard all week to fix a Build error in office..
Back to the story: I realized that it was hard to sleep further, got up, found a tree, but being afraid of snakes around, went on to the nearby road, finished my nature call and went back to sleep.. No more dreams and a peaceful sleep for a couple of hours before a dog started barking non-stop..
I was out climbing this weekend in Oklahoma.. After a tiring Saturday, we are sleeping in the tent.. rather I am sleeping alone in my tent.. It is cold, drizzling outside.. I am in my sleeping bag.. waking up every 5 mins.. rolling left and right, half asleep.. knew I woke up for some reason and go back to sleep..
After a couple of times, I realized, I am doing a 'build clean' command in my dream. For some reason the build is failing.. And I dont know why it is failing.. When I fall back half asleep again, I do a 'build clean' command again.. After a few more times I woke up, I realized I had to pee and was doing a 'build clean' in my dream corresponding to this bodily function..
As a prolog to the introduction, I chose not to pee before sleepin since it was raining and the restroom in the campground was half mile away. As a preface to the prolog, I was working hard all week to fix a Build error in office..
Back to the story: I realized that it was hard to sleep further, got up, found a tree, but being afraid of snakes around, went on to the nearby road, finished my nature call and went back to sleep.. No more dreams and a peaceful sleep for a couple of hours before a dog started barking non-stop..
Friday, February 13, 2009
Shortest Kannada Movie
So many things happening in life that I am finding very little time for blogs these days..
The Premise: Several attempts to watch 'Milana' the movie had failed due to unavailability of good prints or movie not in theatres when I went to India ( i dont remember if was already released then).
Neither did plans of getting a VCD/DVD from India workout since my cousin Swaroop failed to secure a copy.. :P
Success comes along: A mail from my cousin saying the movie is available and I download it.
The Story: I starting watching the part 'Avseq01.dat'. The hero Puneet is in the process of uniting some girl with her long last.. i mean lost boyfriend. A few mins into the movie, the BF exposes his real cruelty and some crying and a few days later Puneets mom and dad come home. I realized that Puneet is actually her husband. A few more story elements, very beautiful songs and some fights and finally the airport scene where the girl and the hero start lovin each other..A black transition effect and I was expecting an 'Intermission' message when the ending credits start off..
I was suprised and checked the duration of the clip coz I had not started Avseq02.dat. It was 1 hr 12 mins and that is when I started Avseq02.dat to realize that it was actually the first part and I indeed had watched the second part wrongly named '1' without even realizing that it had started from middle of story.
The Epilogue: I am used to the Indian movies where the movie name and credits start after some introduction scenes. Thought this was that kind of movie.. Thought this was a story with flashbacks and stuff... Few mins into the movie, forgot that the introduction credits had not come up. The point is.. anything is possible in an Indian movie and NO SPECIAL INTELLIGENCE IS REQUIRED to follow the movie even from middle. So, eventually I got to watch the shortest movie ever in Kannada... :)
The Premise: Several attempts to watch 'Milana' the movie had failed due to unavailability of good prints or movie not in theatres when I went to India ( i dont remember if was already released then).
Neither did plans of getting a VCD/DVD from India workout since my cousin Swaroop failed to secure a copy.. :P
Success comes along: A mail from my cousin saying the movie is available and I download it.
The Story: I starting watching the part 'Avseq01.dat'. The hero Puneet is in the process of uniting some girl with her long last.. i mean lost boyfriend. A few mins into the movie, the BF exposes his real cruelty and some crying and a few days later Puneets mom and dad come home. I realized that Puneet is actually her husband. A few more story elements, very beautiful songs and some fights and finally the airport scene where the girl and the hero start lovin each other..A black transition effect and I was expecting an 'Intermission' message when the ending credits start off..
I was suprised and checked the duration of the clip coz I had not started Avseq02.dat. It was 1 hr 12 mins and that is when I started Avseq02.dat to realize that it was actually the first part and I indeed had watched the second part wrongly named '1' without even realizing that it had started from middle of story.
The Epilogue: I am used to the Indian movies where the movie name and credits start after some introduction scenes. Thought this was that kind of movie.. Thought this was a story with flashbacks and stuff... Few mins into the movie, forgot that the introduction credits had not come up. The point is.. anything is possible in an Indian movie and NO SPECIAL INTELLIGENCE IS REQUIRED to follow the movie even from middle. So, eventually I got to watch the shortest movie ever in Kannada... :)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Flight times mystery
My frequent trips from Dallas to California resulted in an interesting observation.
90% of trips from Dallas to CA took around 2.5 hrs.. But the return trip took around 3 hrs.. Everytime I observed this, I would make a naive assumption that this was coz of the earth's rotation and put it off..I didnt really ponder over the real reason.
Incidently on my most recent trip, the statistics were reverse. Dallas to San Jose took 3.5 hours and return trip took just 3 hours.. Again, the naive assumption didnt work.. This made me go back and see why I was dumb earlier.
I am going to use my OOP concepts and implement reusability here.. Since someone has already put an explanation, follow this link...
'Earths rotation and Flight times'
And being in the S/w industry for so long, I also understand reliability of systems is not guaranteed and hence I have a backup link for same explanation..
Newton explains
Reading online articles for so long has also made me believe related articles are important.. So, if anyone still believes that Bermuda Triangle is still a mystery, you got to read this too..
'Bermuda Triangle explained'
By the way, I knew Bermuda triangle mystery was untrue long before it was even formulated.. :P
90% of trips from Dallas to CA took around 2.5 hrs.. But the return trip took around 3 hrs.. Everytime I observed this, I would make a naive assumption that this was coz of the earth's rotation and put it off..I didnt really ponder over the real reason.
Incidently on my most recent trip, the statistics were reverse. Dallas to San Jose took 3.5 hours and return trip took just 3 hours.. Again, the naive assumption didnt work.. This made me go back and see why I was dumb earlier.
I am going to use my OOP concepts and implement reusability here.. Since someone has already put an explanation, follow this link...
'Earths rotation and Flight times'
And being in the S/w industry for so long, I also understand reliability of systems is not guaranteed and hence I have a backup link for same explanation..
Newton explains
Reading online articles for so long has also made me believe related articles are important.. So, if anyone still believes that Bermuda Triangle is still a mystery, you got to read this too..
'Bermuda Triangle explained'
By the way, I knew Bermuda triangle mystery was untrue long before it was even formulated.. :P
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Ask Questions..
How much do I actually know about myself, my heritage and my traditions?
I have been asked by many ppl here in the US, some questions about the traditions I follow..But posed with some questions, I realize I am not able to answer them. The reason - I DONT KNOW.
Why is it that I dont know? I have been following something without even bothering to explore the root of the traditions..
Take for example, I wear a 'holy thread' around my body (Janivara - which is mandatory for all brahmins). I know a little of basics why it is worn. But is there more to the fact that it indicates the start of 'Brahmacharya' or learning phase? Is there a reason why that evolved..What is the reason for the 3 threads? As far as I know, when the Brahmopadesha (the ceremony of wearing the thread) happened, I was told the significance and importance of it. But why have I forgotten? My memory is bad.. But some things I might not have known at all..
Down the road, I feel sad that many traditions may followed without knowing the reason. And someday ppl will definitely 'question the reason' and wont be ready to follow something blindly. Can we let the history and traditions go down so easily? It is but natural to rebel something if you are not convinced to follow it.
When we start following any tradition or advised about it, we need to ask and know why we do it. Ask the elders about the traditions. Take the knowledge that they have before it is too late so that you can impart it to the future generations.
Not just the traditions..I feel it is important to question each and every action of ours even in the daily lives too, to know why we do it. Every small thing, we need to question. Not to rebel but to enlighten ourselves...So that we dont misguide people. So that we are answerable to our actions. So that we dont make a fool of ourselves when we are questioned about our actions.
Only then you would know if you are doing right or wrong.So we are not in contradiction when questioned. Many may feel I start arguments just for the heck of it. Some may feel I am rebelling just for fun. But the real reason is I am trying to make the other person realize that they may be doing something blindly, Or I am looking to enlighten myself about others opinions..
The blog has gone from me writing about my knowledge of traditions to the fact that we must ask questions. Questions are the ones which will bring out the answers. So, I feel questions are more important than answers. So, exploring the answers for the unknown questions are the way to get wise and knowledgible.
The previous paragraph says I intended to write about knowledge of traditions to 'asking questions'. So, when I wrote the previous paragraph, you should have questioned "how did I know the title before writing the blog?". The answer is, I wrote the blog first and the title later... As simple as that.. Only if you question me, Ill know why I do what I do. Or atleast I know that I have to get my answers, or that I am wrong..
I have been asked by many ppl here in the US, some questions about the traditions I follow..But posed with some questions, I realize I am not able to answer them. The reason - I DONT KNOW.
Why is it that I dont know? I have been following something without even bothering to explore the root of the traditions..
Take for example, I wear a 'holy thread' around my body (Janivara - which is mandatory for all brahmins). I know a little of basics why it is worn. But is there more to the fact that it indicates the start of 'Brahmacharya' or learning phase? Is there a reason why that evolved..What is the reason for the 3 threads? As far as I know, when the Brahmopadesha (the ceremony of wearing the thread) happened, I was told the significance and importance of it. But why have I forgotten? My memory is bad.. But some things I might not have known at all..
Down the road, I feel sad that many traditions may followed without knowing the reason. And someday ppl will definitely 'question the reason' and wont be ready to follow something blindly. Can we let the history and traditions go down so easily? It is but natural to rebel something if you are not convinced to follow it.
When we start following any tradition or advised about it, we need to ask and know why we do it. Ask the elders about the traditions. Take the knowledge that they have before it is too late so that you can impart it to the future generations.
Not just the traditions..I feel it is important to question each and every action of ours even in the daily lives too, to know why we do it. Every small thing, we need to question. Not to rebel but to enlighten ourselves...So that we dont misguide people. So that we are answerable to our actions. So that we dont make a fool of ourselves when we are questioned about our actions.
Only then you would know if you are doing right or wrong.So we are not in contradiction when questioned. Many may feel I start arguments just for the heck of it. Some may feel I am rebelling just for fun. But the real reason is I am trying to make the other person realize that they may be doing something blindly, Or I am looking to enlighten myself about others opinions..
The blog has gone from me writing about my knowledge of traditions to the fact that we must ask questions. Questions are the ones which will bring out the answers. So, I feel questions are more important than answers. So, exploring the answers for the unknown questions are the way to get wise and knowledgible.
The previous paragraph says I intended to write about knowledge of traditions to 'asking questions'. So, when I wrote the previous paragraph, you should have questioned "how did I know the title before writing the blog?". The answer is, I wrote the blog first and the title later... As simple as that.. Only if you question me, Ill know why I do what I do. Or atleast I know that I have to get my answers, or that I am wrong..
Sunday, April 6, 2008
What is wrong??
Let me come straight to the point..
What is wrong with this combination??
Myself, Car ,Austin and March-April
Every time I go to Austin, somethin or the other does go wrong.. First time in Mar 2007, when i went to visit Austin, my car broke down,(to an extent that it was undrivable and I had to sell my car)..Another time, my car slid off the road and again an undrivable situation... And the latest.. when I went to meet Dev in Austin, everything was ok until some theif, broke into my car..(my right passenger rear vent glass) was shattered..)
Now, this makes me wonder what is really happening here?? Is it the stars? Is it the astronomical position of the stars having their effect on me??? Till now, I was not really bothering about astrology.. now I am thinking if this really is true and if true, how far is it true...
One more thing I am wondering is whether I must be superstitious about it and be wary of the combination I mentioned.. or should I fight my fears??? Should I sell off my car because there is something wrong with it?? (I tend to think otherwise).. Should I not bother about the recurring mishaps and continue my trips to Austin undeterred??? Or is it really the fact that my misdeeds of the past are backfiring on me??(KARMA??)
What is it I should believe in??
Image of my car after the break in... :(
What is wrong with this combination??
Myself, Car ,Austin and March-April
Every time I go to Austin, somethin or the other does go wrong.. First time in Mar 2007, when i went to visit Austin, my car broke down,(to an extent that it was undrivable and I had to sell my car)..Another time, my car slid off the road and again an undrivable situation... And the latest.. when I went to meet Dev in Austin, everything was ok until some theif, broke into my car..(my right passenger rear vent glass) was shattered..)
Now, this makes me wonder what is really happening here?? Is it the stars? Is it the astronomical position of the stars having their effect on me??? Till now, I was not really bothering about astrology.. now I am thinking if this really is true and if true, how far is it true...
One more thing I am wondering is whether I must be superstitious about it and be wary of the combination I mentioned.. or should I fight my fears??? Should I sell off my car because there is something wrong with it?? (I tend to think otherwise).. Should I not bother about the recurring mishaps and continue my trips to Austin undeterred??? Or is it really the fact that my misdeeds of the past are backfiring on me??(KARMA??)
What is it I should believe in??
Image of my car after the break in... :(
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Why am I homesick??
Me and homesick?? definitely new to me... Think this is the first time I am feeling so homesick.. You may ask why after so many days in US? why first time?? The reason maybe coz the first time I came to US, I may not have felt so homesick at all..why now? Is it coz I went to blore and came back?? Definitely yes..but why do I feel this sickness more now than the first time??
Is it coz I left my long hair back in the saloon in Blore?? nah.. not enough reason.. :)
Maybe the first time I came out of home, I was looking forward to a new adventure, a new experience, a new outlook and was hopeful of achieving something that I wanted..But now, I think I have been here, seen everything here.. and know the pros and cons of the place.. and begun to value things in India more than before.. Could be the interaction with friends, small talks with family, lunch and dinner at home, mom waking me up in the morning, sharing thoughts and playing games with my sis.. pulling my dad's leg.. even earlier it was there.. but now I see how much I have been missing it..
Maybe being far out here, I feel I am missing out on guiding my sis and helping out my mom.. Never have I felt this much responsibility before.. Being of monetary support from US wont suffice the actual social requirement of a brother and a son..
So, now I realize the reason.. the question I should have asked an year ago, when I came here, I am asking myself now.. Is it really worth coming all the way up here to do my MS?? But again, how many days will this responsibility thing be there.. Just like the many other things, even these are 'tentative' and if you are looking for newer responsibilities, there are plenty and never ending in the social circles.. So, I guess we need to draw a line i mean a circle and restrict our view to that circle..have to manage everything in a balanced way without compromising on ur quests and ambitions.. Ok great.. I think i found the solution..
I have to get rid of this home sickness, get back to assignments, finish up in time.. so that I get to watch the loads of movies that I have queued up for over a month.. I have bought a dvd player too and would not want to waste the investment..
Is it coz I left my long hair back in the saloon in Blore?? nah.. not enough reason.. :)
Maybe the first time I came out of home, I was looking forward to a new adventure, a new experience, a new outlook and was hopeful of achieving something that I wanted..But now, I think I have been here, seen everything here.. and know the pros and cons of the place.. and begun to value things in India more than before.. Could be the interaction with friends, small talks with family, lunch and dinner at home, mom waking me up in the morning, sharing thoughts and playing games with my sis.. pulling my dad's leg.. even earlier it was there.. but now I see how much I have been missing it..
Maybe being far out here, I feel I am missing out on guiding my sis and helping out my mom.. Never have I felt this much responsibility before.. Being of monetary support from US wont suffice the actual social requirement of a brother and a son..
So, now I realize the reason.. the question I should have asked an year ago, when I came here, I am asking myself now.. Is it really worth coming all the way up here to do my MS?? But again, how many days will this responsibility thing be there.. Just like the many other things, even these are 'tentative' and if you are looking for newer responsibilities, there are plenty and never ending in the social circles.. So, I guess we need to draw a line i mean a circle and restrict our view to that circle..have to manage everything in a balanced way without compromising on ur quests and ambitions.. Ok great.. I think i found the solution..
I have to get rid of this home sickness, get back to assignments, finish up in time.. so that I get to watch the loads of movies that I have queued up for over a month.. I have bought a dvd player too and would not want to waste the investment..
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